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Ghost town [05 Jun 2013|04:46am]
Does anyone ever use this site anymore? I've been thinking about you, thinking about all my old friends that may have been far away but were still very dear to me. I'm sorry I haven't been the best friend over the years. Always disappearing, confused and contradicting what I want or needed. I really did and still do have something wrong with me, however it doesn't make me miss my old friends any less. I know everyone has moved on with their lives and will probably never read this, or find themselves reminiscing the way that I am here, but I truly am sorry. It's pretty pathetic that I'm so sad about how I've lost contact with you over the years, because I was just in need of love so badly I kept looking for it in all the wrong places. I kept unintentionally ignoring people that were very dear to me, due to my own selfish reasons. I hope one day you, or anyone else I ever hurt, will forgive me. It may be too little too late. I really just wanted you to know that you were my best friend, and will always be dear to me no matter where our paths ultimately end up leading.
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Oh. [21 Jul 2008|04:30pm]
[ mood | ehh ]

Another boring break at work. Luckily there's only an hour and a half left. I'm thinking about getting another cat.. I've always wanted a pure black cat with green eyes. I told this girl at work that I was looking, I didn't know she had kittens which she soon told me. Now she really wants me to take one but they're so young and it's too soon to see how their personalities are. I write about such interesting stuff, lol. Well, here's some drama for you (I don't think anyone reads this anymore anyways). I'm not currently happy in my relationship. We've been together for about a year and a half now, and it feels like we've been married for 20 years. We fight all the time over everything, he has anger problems, he's also very lazy. I still love him though, and I also adore his family. We have a lot of financial ties, so breaking up would be very difficult.. Not to mention he begs and cries for me not to leave him whenever I mention the possibility.. I feel trapped, but at the same time I want to work things out. Hopefully we can.

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Livejournal fun. [20 Jul 2008|02:20pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Wow, haven't updated this in a long time (this is usually how I start a post here). A lot of things have happened, naturally. Maybe I'll share some of those things later. I just wanted to stop by and say hi to everyone that is still my LJ friend even after so long of a hiatus. I went back to work full time and things are very busy. Of course I haven't forgotten you guys, I'm just occupied once again with what life is throwing my way. Those who know me can ascertain that I pretty much have the worst luck in the universe. Not really, though. Just very bad luck. Oh, as an update to my bad luck; my Trans-am's t-top blew off yesterday on my way to work (on the freeway), and made it's dooming way right onto the hood of a Delta pilot's BMW 650CIC who also was heading to work. Smashed the hood of his car and broke his windshield. Luckily the guy was ok. Sigh. Maybe I'll update more later, but for now it's back to work!

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[21 Jun 2006|01:55am]
I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again
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[13 Dec 2005|07:46pm]
[ mood | weird ]

i'm currently at the michigan state university library learning lots of stuff about things. i do enjoy the people here. well, i enjoy observing.. the people here. maybe i'll go talk to some random person. wow, that laptop is cool.. small sony vaio. haute

i'm so tired.

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[29 Nov 2005|04:06pm]
Today I went to work and talked about a bunch of different sex positions from the Cosmopolitan magazine. Then my gay friend Todd started crying because his ex boyfriend kissed someone else after Todd slept with someone else two weeks earlier. Everyone at work is getting pregnant and/or talking about babies all the time. I was scared I might be pregnant and then I realized that I'm still a virgin. I've developed somewhat of an obsession over DDR since Thanksgiving when I played it for the first time. I'm actually pretty good at it, I'm surprised.. and it's only my third day playing. Maybe I'll be some master one day. Maybe not.

On my way home from work, a man on a cell phone driving some Chrysler convertible started merging over into my lane and almost drifted right into my car. I guess he didn't check his blindspot. I was extremely pissed and flipped him off. I can't believe I felt so angry. I avoided the accident by swerving to the right so his car could effectively move into the same spot that I was in two seconds earlier. I really dislike it when people don't check their blindspots.

So Todd decided to give me a Vicodin pill at work yesterday. It's still sitting in my jacket pocket. Is this that pill that everyone has been talking about that is supposed to make you feel high? A heavy narcotic... I can't imagine that it would make you feel anything else but tired. I probably won't end up taking this pill.

I guess almost everyone I know is either popping pills or smoking marijuana or something else along those lines. Is there something wrong with that? I don't know..

I guess I'm going to just go play some DDR now

...or maybe not yet. Every time I go to update this entry I still feel like I have more to mention. Maybe because I do. I just feel like I want to vent about everything that's been going on with me lately but I don't know where to start. I was talking to my ex boyfriend Matt on the phone a couple of days ago. I said something along the lines of, "Do you have to let me go so you can call one of your five girlfriends?" And he said yeah, like he was serious. I was kidding. I don't think he was. Somehow the subject of sex came up. He asked me something like "After you've been married for 15 years, you can't tell me that you wouldn't want to go have sex with some other guy while your husband had sex with another girl." Actually, no, the thought never crossed my mind. I guess I didn't know him as well as I thought I did when we were together. Or maybe he was just high since he's turned into some major pot head again. I really have no idea anymore.. maybe I'll actually go play some DDR now and update later.
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[27 Aug 2004|09:04am]

well, i just purchased a very nice digital camera last night. i spent about 450 dollars in all on the case and new memory card as well. i'll most likely be posting pictures.. or i'll just be keeping them to myself.

i'm going to be moving out of my current residence, into a very nice apartment complex closer to where i work. my apartment is really nice, it has vaulted ceilings and the apartments are like brand new. they don't have any one bedrooms, so i have to take a two bedroom. that's fine, rent is 525+ utilities. they allow pets.. so i think i'm going to get a mau mau. <3

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[15 Jul 2004|09:18am]

I think I'm going to start using this journal again because I've had it a lot longer. I first made it from my favorite A Perfect Circle song, Brena, but it really has no other relevance to me whatsoever.

I'm at work right now, and it's going very well. I'm in the lead again in sales and I usually always am, so I think my bonus next paycheck is going to be huge. That's so great, I can't wait to start saving more money for next year.

My first break is over, so I'll update a little more during lunch and I plan on reading some of my book that I haven't been able to get into yet.

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